Just another day in the neighborhood

Just when I think I am fully recovering, I have a difficult day. The messages I get from him are interspersed, so I remain confused and hurt. Regardless, I know God is good and I am thankful for the fact that He loves me and is making me better through this.

On a different note, I learned a little about frostbite and dehydration yesterday. A 4.5 mile run left me feeling so bad, I walked home with an escort, over a mile. I was curled on my bed for a good while and stayed in bed all morning. I couldn't feel my fingers for over a half hour and drank out of a water bottle with Gatorade like a baby because I couldn't move my hands. I think I am ok now. I think changes in my diet may have contributed to a cold morning with little food.

I also attempted to make Chinese herb soup tonight. It was very difficult to understand it. The instructions were in Chinese and Engrish. I took out all the herbs, but I will include a picture to demonstrate why this was so difficult. Ok, posting from my iPad proves to be a challenge. I guess I will have to learn how to post pics.:)

Baring my soul and stuff like that

About three and a half weeks ago, I broke up with my boyfriend, Jonathan. We had been dating for about a year and a half and had plans to get married. The break up was mutual, which has greatly assisted in my recovery. However, a break up is still a break up and I have had to really focus on making myself better. I have felt a little lost, since the man I thought I would be spending the rest of my life was no longer there. The first week was rough, but beautiful. We broke up Tue., had a difficult discussion about boundaries Wed., out my dog of almost 16 years down Thu., and was told on Friday that I would have to reapply to take my license for my job. It may sound morbid, but I expected there to be problems by the end of the week. However, through all the sleep deprivation, the loss of appetite, and the difficulties with dealing with the feelings of grief, God was with me every step of the way. I experienced Him in ways I don't think I ever could have before. The break up has been good for me to get my own life back in order and to do much self-evaluation. I have learned much about myself in the last few weeks and have had God keep telling me I HAVE to study for this test. I know the test is coming soon...I have to prepare! God really wants me to focus on this test, but I was so focused on my relationship with Jonathan, I lost myself. I have slowly been gaining it back, but with many lessons learned and a new perspective in my life. I have made some changes and know that I need to make more. I miss his companionship, but know that this was for the best.

There is much more I could post about, but I think that I will leave this here for now.

Dinosaurs, in and out of the classroom

Well...my class is over. There is still a grade not posted, but when that is completed, I will have an A-. I think it helps having some idea of what I am doing now, but it was a steep learning curve. Haha...not without unique experiences, which taught me a few lessons in interpersonal communications.:) I had forgotten how important life experiences really are in school and remembered wanting to dabble in as many life experiences as possible when I was in graduate school. Going back to school reminded me of how much I have learned in the last four years.

Tonight, we had a birthday party for Levi, my boyfriend's son. Three year olds are so cute. Dinosaurs and a cake with volcano ruled the party. Last night, we were playing around. Levi said that he was a dinosaur and began roaring. I was a kitty-cat. He climbed on my back and we went around the house like that with "Baby Jack", Jonathan's collie, who served as an interim monster. I love kids this age, because everything is an adventure. I will post pictures soon of the roaring good time.

I'm done!

Ok, it's late and I am not writing much, but all I have to say is...I'm done with my class! It has been six long (but quick) weeks, but I have learned some and really grown during this class. Some enlightening experiences with team members definitely has taught me a few things about interpersonal communication.

Who's in the casket?

Ok...so this could be a post about "I am still so stressed out I could puke because I have to re-do a paper that took me all of July 4th to get done by tomorrow night", but I will share a funny story instead. So, our receptionist at work's mother recently passed away (not the funny part) and I thought that I would swing by the viewing tonight on my way home from work. I parked my car and stood in a long line outside the room for the viewing. Approximately 20 minutes of me playing on my phone passed before I got into the door. As I walked up to the room, I realized that a man's picture was sitting outside...checked the name...a (presumably man's) name...then I decided to peek around the corner at the family. The receptionist was nowhere to be found. I quickly discovered that I had attended a viewing to a man whom I had never met or knew nothing about. I quickly bee lined for the door (should I have stayed and offered my condolences?) and discovered later that the viewing was TOMORROW night. At least I tried...

Day 11

Today is Day 10, but really it's Day 11. You may wonder why I am up at 1:30am blogging when I should be in bed. I am wondering the same thing. I just finished posting a discussion response and doing a paper on plagiarism. I feel a little more confident the second week into this class, but I am super busy still. The end of the fiscal year meant expense vouchers, putting in PTO, and blowing (I mean spending) my professional development money. I think I bought out part of a section of the arts and crafts section at Meijer and I feel as if Amazon should be sending me a thank you can (maybe with some money attached) for the amount of money I spent in two orders of kids' books. I just feel bad for the guy who had to put up half my order of arts and crafts stuff because I waaaay overdid it at the checkout. Who knew the supplies could cost that much money?

On a different note, I got a Droid. I am freaking out about having to pay for internet monthly, but it'll be nice for this class. A little surreal that I have such a nice phone that has a full, working touch screen.

I must have an inkling of what I am doing

So...I needed a quick update on how my class was going...it's only fair. I was up until 1am messing with stuff last night, but did my first post and held my breath. My prof wrote back today, addressing me personally, in addition to the class, stating that we brought up good points! Ok...deep breath...I can do this. My response post, in addition to a quiz on hidden "Instructor's Policies" have clarified some things, so hopefully, I don't miss anything. There are nice reminders that pop up when you log in of things that are coming due. I am tired and had a really rough day with my stomach (I think it's nausea from the anxiety), but I am headed to bed in a few, so I have done what I could do for the day. At least I am surviving.:)