Baring my soul and stuff like that

About three and a half weeks ago, I broke up with my boyfriend, Jonathan. We had been dating for about a year and a half and had plans to get married. The break up was mutual, which has greatly assisted in my recovery. However, a break up is still a break up and I have had to really focus on making myself better. I have felt a little lost, since the man I thought I would be spending the rest of my life was no longer there. The first week was rough, but beautiful. We broke up Tue., had a difficult discussion about boundaries Wed., out my dog of almost 16 years down Thu., and was told on Friday that I would have to reapply to take my license for my job. It may sound morbid, but I expected there to be problems by the end of the week. However, through all the sleep deprivation, the loss of appetite, and the difficulties with dealing with the feelings of grief, God was with me every step of the way. I experienced Him in ways I don't think I ever could have before. The break up has been good for me to get my own life back in order and to do much self-evaluation. I have learned much about myself in the last few weeks and have had God keep telling me I HAVE to study for this test. I know the test is coming soon...I have to prepare! God really wants me to focus on this test, but I was so focused on my relationship with Jonathan, I lost myself. I have slowly been gaining it back, but with many lessons learned and a new perspective in my life. I have made some changes and know that I need to make more. I miss his companionship, but know that this was for the best.

There is much more I could post about, but I think that I will leave this here for now.