Yesterday was my last day at work. It was sad, happy, and peaceful all at the same time. I moved out of my office late last night by myself. It was hard to fathom not walking into that building again as an employee, leaving my keys on the desk with my work-issued computer, and indestructible cell phone. I woke up early yesterday morning and thought "I wonder what I will leave on my voicemail when I leave today". It suddenly occurred to me that this was no vacation, no extended absence, no returning phone calls and voicemails. It was sad to leave the only career I have ever known for the great unknown. I finally felt at peace with it after a dinner with a coworker and feel as if this is the right decision. Affirmation comes time and time again, even though there are so many questions. How will I get health insurance? What if I get in a serious accident? Can I truly survive on the piddly amount I will be making? I am excited about the possibilities and scared that this is not going to work. So I trust, wait, pray, and work.
A sudden thought occurred to me the other night. I was contemplating my busy weekend and began panicking about my Monday mornings and getting everything done. Then it occurred to me...I have no oligations to do on Monday. I will let you know how that goes...
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